I heard a guy discussing why men have such a hard time with homosexuality, specifically pertaining to the lack of masculinity. He said that men and women, during sexual interactions, are engaged in a power exchange. It is assumed by this man, that the man in the scenario is the one who believes he has the power. In fantasy the straight man sees himself dominating the woman. In our culture men are presumed and encouraged to be the more powerful one., i.e. masculine =power. He exact words were "when a man fantasizes about a woman and then considers the possibility that he may be in the position of that woman should he find himself in a homosexual encounter, he gets scared, like Oh my God!" So, when a straight man begins to fantasize about another man they immediately shut the thought down because they do not want to be in the position of the woman. I think this is interesting. What does it say about how men look at women? And the assumed power roles in the bed room?

marrige

marriage requires an affair with yourself

and now for the funnies

house is almost ready; cleared of clutter and dog poop. had a fabulous idea with yankee girl and a new blog will be born tomorrow that all women between the ages of 25-35 will love. Tomorrow ladies we will take you back, way back, to a time without worries and your best friends jessica and elizabeth were always there to keep you company and help you figure stuff out.
Had a great day with the kiddos, freed them from their fear of the dark with a little Berenstein Bears action. IN THE DARK and THE BAD DREAM I highly reccomend to anyone with a complex involving darkenss and monsters. if it can happen to sister bear, it can happen to you.
laughed and laughed with them, they are my morning funnies

Packing up the House

Spent the day making a movie (on the hunt) with the kids. We made clay animals and made a movie. Good times, the mouse and bunny hop aroudn looking for food, find healthy food and turn their noses up at it only to discover my fav, mtn. dew and M&Ms. Its about a min and a half and will post it when I figure out how. Spent the rest of the day cleaning out the house. All that needs to be done is clean the rooms and put a sign up!!! WHoa hoa! one step closer to home..ahhh...nothing really that I pondered today except poverty. It is the only circumstance that renders you without choice, especially if you have children. On a lighter note. off to work on the movie and plan my yellow brick road home, i must watch out because I might just need to look right under my nose and click my mother-fuckin heels!

A day stuck in the mud, mentally

why are people dressed up like other people singing other peoples songs making so much money? and we applaud them..
Did you know there are teachers in South Korea that make more money then the professional baseball players there? Some make millions every year!

agghhh hot and busy

Hello people, Im super busy right now moving and such. I have two new blogs I need to follow and promise those hotties I will get there asap. Spent the weekend on the lake again, GOT TO LOVE IT. would rather be there then roasting in this god forsaken place. I had a question..any help please.. why is starbucks water in their plastic cups from their tap so damn good? They aren't selling any of the bottled -help the dehydrated children- water when the free shit is so wonderful.

Crazy

God is great
Beer is good
People are crazy

good day hot hot sun

Hello,
Just got back from some Texas lake side fun. It was GREAT! sking, tubing, swimming, boating, what more can a country girl-i mean suburban girl- ask for. I believe I may be conforming to this Texan lifestyle. I have found appreciation for country music. I have programed a station into my radio! Really, it is refreshing to hear music that has men singing about missing his girl instead what a **ich, she is or how he wants to **ck her mouth, etc..you get my drift. From an objective stance the music is really honest. I like that. simple and honest. And I learned to two-step, well kind of. I liked it either way. I'm tired of how people consider humping each other on a dance floor as dancing. well, ya'll, I fixin' to make dinner. catch ya later.

Yo People

Yo People

Check out my other blog if you don't mind

Hey Hey, Happy Fourth to all those real Americans out there who aren't Democrats, or Liberals, or gay, or female, or a minority, or Jewish, Islamic, Catholic, or poor.
come on now, you know I'm playin. Sarah Palin resigned, this is a beautiful day for America! Love your neighbor, kiss your wife, and if the wife won't kiss ya, get some from the loving neighbor. :)

SO LONG, TOO LONG

Hello people who have noticed that I have not written since Christmas. A lot has changed. I have changed a lot. I am trying to keep this up for my BFF. Whom I love and is my hetrosexual life partner. We live far apart and this is a good way to stay informed. So, Im getting divorced, have two head cavernomas, love my kids, and have found something so rare that its value can't be described. One day, I'll disclose but for now consider me quite rich. And in need of a job.

Not very Christmassy but still...

Could not resist discussing this. I recently had a conversation with a male friend of mine (best he remain anonymous) who made a very interesting point about female and male nudity in film and television. He argues women are rarely naked on the screen because you never actually see their vagina. All that is exposed (aside from breasts and butt) is well, bush. He contends that the pubic hair is not their vagina. For men however, should their lower body be exposed there would be no mistaking the penis in full view. Their parts are not "hidden" and so are less often "nude" in film. This separation of pubic hair and body parts is interesting. I never considered it. Could it be? In consideration, there is no sensation in the lower abdomen area. Seeing pubic hair has no real enticement ( to those without a fetish) At the edge of the area begins the vagina but that is quickly swept between the legs where it can be protected in a sense hidden. It is even hidden from some women in many cases, imagine your most sexual, pleasurable body part hidden even from yourself! So the questions are: are men shown less in the buff because you can see their body part without trimmers? Are pubic hair part in parcel of the vagina? Do you have the same reactions if someone saw your bush as you would if they saw between your legs? I haven't concluded..practically it makes sense. The goods are a bit further down but ...are we drawing lines in the sand here? A naked woman is still naked even if you can't see her who-ha. If that is so then are men really stimulated by a naked woman or just the edited version of her without full frontal exposure? Are we back to the ideal again? The woman without her womanhood? Ignoring the power beneath the foliage?

Some of the greatest humanitarian discoveries can be found right under our noses. To find the real will of people you need only to ask around. We have created a social world, one that allows us to interact with each other everyday and most days this gives us only frustration. But if you take the time to know the woman in front of you in line or the man who opened the door for you, you may just be surprised at how much you have in common. This is not in reference to the things you or they may have. I am talking about the real humanness that is within us all. And what I learned today is what a great country to live in where we can share that humanness, that struggle together.
Feminist, Republican, Christian, Muslim, Democrat, Mexican, are titles not lives. These are the identities we must break away from. Because in this country we know struggle but we also know life, a good life. There are places, people, homes, jobs, and the like for those who are hungry. There is life in the hunger and life in the giving. Ultimately we can each give, we live in a country where you can help. The option to do so is the good life. There are people in many other places who can not help one another. They bear witness to the deaths of life. They must watch others become sick, killed, starved, raped, abused without the choice. It can come down to food or work. Many who without either will simply die. Here, in this great country, we have the choice because we have created the means. We can care about one another, we can help. We can make that choice to act. A person's complacency with their life is not a judgment to use against them. We all know complacency. Help whenever and where ever you can because in this country we are fortunate enough to be able to do so. Merry Christmas

Been inspired

In the everyday moments-the now- I find the smell of real life. How thirsty I have been for this memory. Today is today is tomorrow never yesterday.

Get the feeling

So the second in command sends out a video slandering our new President elect. He uses racist language and a threatening tone. I was informed this by someone who did not vote for Senator Obama and the feeling I received was much like a "see, told you so- they are going to test us". I originally responded by saying we have been tested (9/11) and our response to that over the last 8 years, has not been so great. We should give our new President the benefit of the doubt that he will be able to react and respond appropriately. This person then went on to say,"yeah, and he wanted to sit down with them!" Which we all know to not be the case.There never was any insinuation that he would sit down with terrorist organizations that bombed our country and have a chat. However, in retrospect the exchange really convoluted a basic problem in this country. One of which I have never felt a part of. The R-word, racism. A known terrorist taped and distributed a video of himself throwing racial epithets at our newly elected President and initially this did not make me angry. I can come up with many "reasons" I did not react instantly. I will spare you. The fact is I should have been immediately angered by someone racially slandering my President. Unfortunately it took me some time to understand what this means and to accept it. Now, I am angry. First, at myself for not defending my President. Next, at the surrounding environment that has created and supports general racist behaviour, so much so that I am unaware of its glaring presence in this circumstance, and lastly at the soulless murderer on the video tape. We should all take offense, we should all demand respect be shown, we should all forbid what is growing in mindless banter regarding race and separatism. If there is to be any hope for healing this divide we must be offended together, be respectful together, and defend what this great country has recently done. This is not a matter of policy or character, this is a matter of skin color and we should unite as the country this terrorist is insulting; not observe the struggle from afar. If President elect Obama is tested- we are tested. Let us unite in preparation and support of our President and sharpen our perceptions so that we stand on the side of the American ideals. Freedom for all don't we deserve to give that to ourselves and each other?

Art and all of the above

"The beginning and end of all literary and artistic activity is the reproduction of the world that surrounds me by means of the world that is in me, all things being grasped, related, re-created, molded, and reconstructed in a personal form and an original manner." -Goethe

Great Thoughts

Morning Walk n Talk
Reading a book on Hopper last night I can across a great quote which clarified my though process for me. "No one was more secure in his knowledge of the facts and less convinced of their worth."
Perfect, Wonderful, can save many of us from going of the edge...

Weapon Sales

Afternoon Chew

Gun sales are up 30 fold since the election. The nation has never seen such a spike in the purchase of firearms. I think it is so we can all protect ourselves from the crazy moose hunters and disgruntled Republicans. At least I hope so.